I’m not sure why i always subject myself to these things.

Again, i’m disappointed greatly by the lack of response i received or didn’t receive from her.  This scenario might as well have been repeated from last week.  I sent another text message and still no response.

Clearly she doesn’t want to speak with me and clearly she cares not to deal with it in anyway but to ignore me.  The part that is most painful is the fact that she told me that she “still cares about me” and that she’ll “always love me”.  Bullshit to that.  If she did care so much for me she wouldn’t be leaving me hanging.

A friend of mine says I at least deserve a face-to-face since we were together for three years.  But what the fuck, i got nothing, just a goodbye telephone call.  Hell, she might as well have sent me a “Dear John” text message.  I’m getting all fired up now.  Goddammit.  No parting hugs, no parting kisses, no nothing.  Not a smile, not a wink… “hey kid, don’t let the door hit you on the ass on your way out!”

The pain grows and the anger begins.  Soon i will be at full rage.  Without a care in the world for this person i thought i could love.  Fuck you.  I don’t deserve this.