I weighed in again yesterday and it looks like i’ve lost another 5 pounds since i last weighed in 3 weeks ago!  My strength has also increased, so things are just getting better and better for me!

I’m excited…. all this working out and eating right is really beginning to show.  Slowly but surely i’m still losing weight.  I don’t really have a target or goal, i just wanna keep losing weight until i hit that wall where i can’t lose weight anymore.  I’m hoping to get down to 200 at least i guess, and then continue to keep losing weight if i can.  I think 215 might be where i’ll start seeing a slow down in weight loss.  Right now i’m weighing in at 227 lbs.  But i’m committed to keeping at it and maintain my diet and fitness plan for at least a year.

On the weekend cleaned up my room, took me a few hours, but i went through almost all the stuff in my room sorting and tossing stuff out.  I packed up any photos and notes i had from Laura.  It made me quite sad reading the stuff we used to tell each other when we were “in love”.  I looked at some old photos and then put them all in a box and packed it away.  It was a very somber moment for me.  I was sitting there on the edge of my bed and i felt so lonely at that moment in time.  What hurts most is that she just doesn’t want any contact from me whatsoever.  I think i made her hate me by writing about her on my blog.

Well whatever it is, and whatever happens, i am concentrating all my energy into getting fit.  “Fuck it all…. get fit”.  That’s what i keep telling myself for now.